Dwelling in this dwelling

Been dwelling on a dream that will not be.
forgetting what i'm supposed to believe
Was it my fault? Was it yours?
Neither. It was ours.

It was mine, but it was yours too.
Will you never hurt like me
because of what I will not be?
And if you did would you even let me see?

I wanted; you accepted.
I grieved; you breathed,
A sigh of relief,
And I re-live every day....
every day.

I will never forget what was going to be
I will never forget what it meant to me
to us
to be 'us'
But it won't be 'us'
It'll just be me.
I will do the silent suffering.

-SR.